Off Pils

Im sick of my pils for the last couple of days. I forget to take them 1 day, and am okey. But then, i try to off for the next day, am just okey for half day. The rest pf the day till this morning am blur. Still under control but no longer feel solid!! Really though situation. I dont know when this pils will stop consuming my brain and psychologies. I want and need to off soon. But am paralized without it. Please God give me extra strength and patient so i can wait longer so it will ended naturally, the way like it should. Please!!